nostalgia

Why must we always look back with longing for what we had? Wouldn't it be better to accept what happened and change what is going to happen?.........I am very guilty of this crime.

there were so many plans I had made for the future, I was going to be a career soldier who spent his free time traveling the country with nothing but a fast bike, leather jacket, and a backpack. I was going to do something with my music, my painting, my writing, photography, building, cooking. learn as many languages as I possibly could, and use them regularly. start my own business, a recording studio/instrument repair shop. visit Scotland, Russia, Afghanistan.  I was going to become a pilot and own  my own plane. own a cabin in alaska......etc

 I was never going to get married, probably not even be in a serious relationship, for her sake who ever she would have been. I hated the idea of love because it had no place for me, so I was going to make no place for it in return. I was going to be attached to no one and no place. just go where ever the next job took me or the next highway. Basically the dream life of a lot of people I think.

that has changed though, while I do still plan on the fast bike and leather jacket. Hopefully still be able to do the army career. I can still do something with my music, art, and writing. I can still travel the world.......I just wont be alone anymore, which I now realize would have driven me to udder madness. I will now have a constant companion and that is all I need. If none of this could come to pass but one I would have you Ariel, and nothing else. I hope you will be able to put up with my excessively free spirit and sometimes spontaneous actions.

Now we can make plans together. we can live everyday together like we just fell in love. 20 years from now people who meet us will think we are newlyweds.

I love you Ariel and that is all I need to know. thank you for making life so amazing.

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